So, just a summary of the first post. I was a B person. I had spied for the B’s side.. B honestly, truly believed that he was right in the way he went about things, he called it protecting his flock. If I remember correctly, he said something along the lines of he didn’t care how other people viewed him, as long as those G people were either out of church or agreed to sit still. I remember him saying he would be happy if they left.
Throughout the year, something began to grow within me – – the yearn for the truth and for understanding. (Why was there so much discord within our Sunday times) So, believing that by staying on B’s side I would be having colored lens – I intentionally distanced myself from B, to learn if these G group; the people I’d grown up with in church, really had bad intentions, were as bad as B painted them to be.
I just wanted to understand, I just wanted for the strife to stop and for us to love. Was that so wrong? It was God’s love, that he loves us all which began to move in me. In Mark 12:31 it says, The second is this: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’ There is no commandment greater than these.” Was what we B-ers doing Love? Bad-mouthing, creating outcasts, making them into jokes, etc. – – is this love? Doesn’t God tell us to turn the other cheek too?
The next time B insulted one of people on G’s side in front of people, I went to B’s room and reprimanded him on it. As a sinner to a sinner, not that I was a better person than B. Not that I was anything above B, but because what he did was wrong. Aren’t we allowed to do that? Or am I not allowed to call out a Pastor when he does something wrong? Just because he is a pastor.
But B saw that reprimand as me going to G group’s side. Just because I stood up for someone being unfairly and personally attacked in a meeting filled with other people.
I learnt only recently that B has been telling people on his side that I betrayed B by going to G’s side.
Subsequently, he did to me what he did to everyone else in G. Bad-mouthed, made me an outcast among the people I grew up with.. because they buy into his sentiments without actually knowing for themselves, they only know what B tells them. B once blinded me with his lies about G group. But during the period of being away and sincerely asking G group about everything.. I learnt that B had withheld some things, I can only guess it was to give his stories a more dramatic flair to convince us of why group G is wrong; and that B is right and therefore it gave B and his minions a right to treat other people in that way. I don’t know about you reader, and B follower, but not telling the whole truth IS lying. There is no fence of “he wasn’t really”.
The lies theory used to be a theory. But I tested it recently, and sadly for B I have WhatsApp and minutes of meeting proof showing that he again, withheld the truth. And thankfully it wasn’t to me alone, but to a whole group of people.
B has twisted things to suit himself and his agendas time and again. A pastor.
I have posted this online for my ex to read, as he is the only one of the B group I told about regarding this account. Ex, you deserve to know the full truth from both sides, not just what B has been telling you. You are too afraid to ask me yourself, afraid you’ll get influenced too I suppose. For whatever the reason, I know that you will not talk face to face with me anytime soon for fear of making B feel more threatened.
This account remains anonymous to everyone else and please keep it that way ex. Please continue to let me trust you.